@sullybiker Actually here's an answer. About once a week I will fantasize about a scenario where I ended up driving a bus or working in a hospital or something, some sort of job that REALLY HELPS PEOPLE!!!111!!!! instead of doing tech at kind of a meh level. This is a fantasy because I can see about 100 different ways I could mess a job like that up really badly because IRL I'm kind of easily distracted, easily flustered, I have gotten better but the bar is just very low.